Today has been a day worth forgetting as everything that could possibly go wrong did. To crown it all we now, in the late afternoon have snow which is staying!!! October 21st and there is snow on the ground! I know I am taking this personally and of course it has nothing really to do with me but everything and I mean everything that I have done today has gone awry. Not huge things to be sure but all those small things do start to add up, until you begin to wonder what the message is, or even is there a message and am I perhaps some sort of blithering idiot to assume that my life is generally calm and really it is just contained chaos and today I woke out of my coma and saw it for what it is. Frustrating!!!!(... and full of run on sentences.) I was hoping that by writing it down I would release the accumulated energy and feel better but no. Thich Nat Hanh is right . The more energy you feed anger the angrier you feel.
Right, I will switch gears. At this moment the computer is working fine... toi toi toi...We have heat in the house, and the grub in the oven is beginning to smell sentimental. The snow is quite pretty if it can be seen from a warm dry spot. The cat is sitting beside me and purring. I have time to write this uninterrupted and there is always the hope of a better day tomorrow. To those of you who feel the gag reflex coming on I apologize but old Thich is right. I do feel a little better and I don't care what anyone says. It is all about me so there!
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